how to fix my life

so there is camp nanowrimo in june and august. i’m definetly planning on joining june, since my nanowrimo novel needs some rewriting and such, and this time i’m better prepared than in november. my story for june will be a fantasy story. i’ve mapped out the continent, i’ve named (only a couple) places and i know where my characters are gonna start and where they will finish. its more then i knew last november where i ended up rambling to all ends but the one i thought was right.

Camp NaNoWriMo has the same recipe als NaNoWriMo in november, you write a story of 50.000 words in one month. the difference between the two events is that well, one is a camp version. at camp you’ll get a cabin assigned (optional) where you will get 4-6 cabin mates to write together with. while during november you’ll sign yourself to a region and the ML organizes events for the region.
for both events the forums on NaNoWriMo.org are being used, they’ve even made a special Camp NaNoWriMo section there for the campers. but for camp, I won’t be MLing but just be another camper =3

Off to another topic, may is a terrible month for me. I’ve got four exams (luckily spread over three weeks) and the most terrible one is German. I know a lot of people say german looks like dutch, but seriously it doesn’t. true some words are alike and it may have looked like each other a few hundred years back, but really now a day it isn’t that much a like. German has an annoying grammar with the male and female for almost every word (can’t be ver specific here since my english vocabulary is failing here). you would think they could take dutch example and keep it to one word for the (translated in dutch: de).
the toher topics I have on my exams are: Art history (wich is interesting), Geography (kinda boring but still some interesting subjects) and History (wich does interest me). so German really is the toughest one for me.

I’m soo is distress right now. Mu father camera is lost and its my fault. my parents really don’t like it wich is understandeable. my mother was even complaining about that it was the 5th camera that was lost (my father lost the other four himself, and has another camera still somewhere in his room). right now, getting a job is priority. with that steady income i can get stuff done. but saying things is easier then doing it it.
I am not very good in handeling guilt. I often panic with these kind of situation, and in dutch we have a saying for that, een kat in het nauw maakt rare sprongen (EN: like a cornered animal). Its like I have this neurotic thing going on. I guess I’m still to childish in many ways and it won’t change really. it something that needs to be taking care also. being more serieus and stop being afraid.

some of you may know others may not, but this december The Hobbit: an unexpected Journey comes out. the thrailer looks amazing.

the song I like, and you also hear in de the trailer is the misty mountains. Its an inspirational song and it relaly gives nice and good ideas to write. I just can’t stop listening to the song. Like the Lord of the Rings movies, the The two Hobbit movies will be directed by Peter Jackson and the soundtrack made by Howard Shore.

Also I became a script Frenzy ML. it was kind of random, but I like it. the Sc ript Frenzy region is not as big as the NaNoWriMo region is, but it is still a nice region. Also, I’m determined to finish script Frenzy, since script Writing is different than novel writing. I definetly will not work at home since that obviously won’t work in the situation it is right now. I really need to get things straight as in having a part time job and a steady income. expecially with the whole school thing comming up.